Joy Update: She nursed like a champ today! She has been great throughout the day and if she does well through the night, then she has a very good chance of coming home tomorrow! YAY!
Joy Michelle is 3 days old today, and Janie Beth would have been 10 months old. They were both born on a Tuesday, in the NICU Tues. night and Wed, and I went home on a Thursday after delivering each of them. Obviously, Joy Michelle is still in the NICU. She will hopefully be coming home 10 months to the day after Janie Beth went home to be with Jesus. Amazing Grace!
My arms have not hurt like they did yesterday when I left the hospital since the days and nights after coming home from the hospital after Janie Beth. October 28, 2010 was the first time I have ever walked out of the hospital after having a baby without carrying one in my arms or lap. (I carried Janie Beth out because we brought her to the funeral home.) We went to the cemetary on the way home to see Janie Beth. I miss her so much. There are things that I didn't experience with her that I hadn't even thought about.
I am so thankful to get to smell Joy Michelle and feel her precious skin by my face all nice and warm. To hear her cry and little noises that she constantly makes. To hold her warm body close to mine as I nurse her. I am blessed! I have peace. Many things are bittersweet, but the sweet outweighs the bitter because I know Janie Beth is smiling down on us. She is thankful that Joy Michelle is here, and she is beyond thankful that she is in Heaven.
I am amazed that I sit here 10 months later. I look back at December 29, 2009, and I do not recognize that person anymore. God has done wonders in my life. Joy Michelle is a huge ray of sun in the storm that we have been walking in!
I am off to bed! I hope to type Joy Michelle's birth story soon, as well as share some more pics.