The Crib

We pulled the crib down out of the attic. I wanted to get it out early to make sure it still worked. One of the sides was having some issues before, but it seems to be good now. We changed out some hardware.

I fully anticipated putting it up to be harder. It is in the exact same place, and the glider has been moved to the end of it, just like for Janie Beth. I did sell the bedding that I had bought for Janie Beth (it wasn't what I really wanted for her), so currently it just has a pink afghan thrown on it with some animals that will be Joy Michelle's. I like that Joy Michelle now has a spot to put her things. Although, at the moment Katie Jo's babies and animals are invading. LOL

I think having different bedding will make this more Joy Michelle's. It all feels so different this time. I actually wanted to set up the crib. I want to get things re-arranged to put her things out. But, I do still have in the back of my head that she might not come home. Just because it feels different, nothing is guaranteed except for the fact that God is going to work all things together for our good and His glory.

I have changed my mind (I am a woman you know :)). I have come to a point where I am ok with using the things that I had bought for Janie Beth. I had originally planned to buy all new things and sell Janie Beth's things. You know, I think she would like her baby sister to use them. :) I also believe that I would have just as much trouble, if not more, buying new used things. I didn't really get what I really wanted for Janie Beth, and if I got what I really wanted this time, then I would feel bad for not getting Janie what I wanted. It is a crazy cycle I live in. LOL

I have become excited to use Janie things, at least for now. It feels as if Janie Beth is contributing. Joy Michelle will be wearing the clothes that were bought for Janie Beth too, although there aren't that many. This is another way God has provided. We are coming closer to the end of our money, and Janie Beth's things were bought at a time when we had more money. Had it not been for Janie Beth, we would have nothing for Joy Michelle. God sees the big picture!!!

I have already just sat in the glider by the crib and just dreamed. Wondered who Janie Beth would be now, who Joy Michelle is going to be, how it will feel to hold a baby and feed one again. I am amazed that God would give me the opportunity to carry another precious baby. He is beyond gracious!

I am also amazed at how God changes my heart, when I let Him. This has been quite a journey, and I really wouldn't change it. I am very thankful for His hand in my life.