"And the Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live." Deuteronomy 30:6

but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory both now and forever. Amen.
2 Peter 3:18

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

A New Part of the Journey

We have entered the territory when things started to change with Janie Beth. I am 26 wks today. It was at this appointment with Janie Beth that we requested another u/s to see if her legs were still growing, and said that we would go see a specialist if they hadn't or were falling further behind. My OB called me; we had seen the nurse practitioner; and said that he felt we should go ahead and set up the appointment with the specialist because it usually takes a couple weeks to get in. This began the 2 wk wait before seeing our OB and the 2.5 wk wait before seeing the specialist. If I had only known what those days would bring!

As we get closer, I actually tend to miss Janie Beth more. There are days when it really hits me that we are going to have a baby. I know that sounds crazy! It is all getting more real. I think my sister having her baby has helped in this part of my journey. Seeing everything go ok makes me think that perhaps it is all going to be ok for me this time. Holding that precious little girl has made me long to hold not only Janie Beth, but Joy Michelle too. I was somewhat surprised by the desire to have Joy Michelle NOW. LOL These last 3 months are going to take forever. :)

I am thankful for God's grace with this pregnancy. Joy Michelle is a jumping bean! :) We have a mover on the way. It brings me much reassurance, and I know that God knew I would need it after hardly feeling Janie Beth.

I do not know what to expect from myself as we enter these weeks ahead. I have a feeling my emotions may be quite fragile. Fall and football will remind me of Janie Beth. If it snows this winter it will remind me of Janie Beth. We are enterinig Janie Beth's time of year. :) I do wish she was here to enjoy this with us, but I know that it looks far better from where she is. :)


  1. I'm a little anxious about fall and winter because this is the time of year we found out about her diagnosis and then lost her. Hugs. We'll get through it together.

  2. I totally relate to the desire to see her NOW!!! I'm SO ready!!