Christmas Activities and Life

We are trying to follow Hubbards Cupboard Christmas activities this year. It is really neat and I really like it! We have done 3 days. Why is it when the weekend comes our schedule goes out the window!?! I had planned on doing the activities over the weekend also, but this weekend was packed. We are trying to get back on track today, but Joy Michelle had a rough night and is now having reflux troubles, so we will hopefully catch up tomorrow. We might get some done tonight, I hope!

We are replacing math with Christmas activities this month. Josiah is ahead in Math, so we are just reviewing and doing a worksheet or two a week. School is hard to get done right now! When my grief is close to the surface, it is hard to get it done! Here it is almost 1:00 and we haven't done anything yet. They are cleaning up and then we will do phonics.

I am just so jumbled up! I want things to go great for my kiddos and really focus on Jesus this month, but it is all I can do to get through some of the days. I know it will come in time; at least, I hope so! From reading others blogs I know it gets slightly easier as time goes by. I hope to get things tomorrow to put on Janie Beth's grave, and maybe that will help me some.

I have really been in the mood to finish up the shopping. I had fun last week going to a craft show and the mall. Joy Michelle is shaping up to be another shopping partner! :)

This December just feels alot like last December. I feel as though I am just going through the motions. My house is a mess. I can't seem to get myself in order enough to keep up with everything. I am telling you, grief takes all of your strength sometimes! I am very thankful that I have Joy Michelle to snuggle. She reminds me to slow down sometimes. When she is fussy, I just sit with her, and I remember to cherish these times!

I am trying hard to encourage my family and focus on each of them each day. Eli has really been in need of this lately. I am keeping him close to my side and having him help me with as much as he can because he is being extra "fun" these days. ;) Josiah is the one I am trying to encourage the most. I am telling you, this is way out of my comfort zone! I pray that God really grows in me the ability to encourage all those around me.

The kids can feel the grief and maybe they are grieving themselves as they are constantly at each other these days.

I will say I have a peace that passes understanding as I walk through these days. I can feel God like I did at the beginning of this year. I am very thankful to have Him so close to my side. I pray that He is close to bringing our family out of the limbo we have been in for 2 years now!

The uncertainty for the days ahead is harder some days than others. It is hard to watch the bank account dwindle!

Father, please have compassion on us! May You do exceedingly abundantly above all we could ever ask or think. May You continue to move on our behalf, and write my faith when I cannot see what you are doing and do not understand. You are in control, and I will leave the reigns in Your hands. Open the eyes of my heart and lead me in Your will. I love You! Grow me, Lord. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.