I wanted to let you all know that I am getting better. We have gotten back into our chore routine and having our prayer and devotion time in the morning. I am reading up on how to train my children (or better yet, me LOL). I have had to put I Will Carry You aside for now. Their journey is very similar to ours, and I it takes a lot out of me right now. I hope to pick it back up again in a few months. For now, I need to work on how to handle the kiddos living in my house. :)
We have been playing games the last few days. I pulled out the Fishing game and the Elephant game, and we play Toy Story Monopoly Jr and Yahtzee. It is fun to have Eli getting to where he can play too. I can't believe he will be 3 on Friday!!
Since we are doing things, Janie Beth doesn't cross my mind quite as often, but then I will have a moment sometimes. I love to watch my screen saver that goes through her file of pictures! I really miss her and love her so much!
The weather is only in the 70's today and tomorrow so you will find us outside the rest of the afternoon after naptime and most of the day tomorrow. :) I am thankful that God gives us times when the heat isn't as bad. It is kind of like in the fire. He gives us periods that aren't as hot when He has us in the Refiner's fire!! He is very gracious and merciful!
I pray that I will continue to lean on God and let Him bring me through this journey. I know I will look back at this year and think that it was harder than I realized. That sounds crazy, but I know it is true. It takes more for me to get through the day than I realize. I am still grieving hard even though I have learned to make it through a day or week at a time instead of a minute at a time. The only way that I could make it through without realizing how hard it is is by the Father carrying me. It doesn't feel as hard because He is carrying me and He is holding me and He is bearing the burden on His shoulders! Thank You, Lord Jesus!!!