"And the Lord your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your descendants, to love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live." Deuteronomy 30:6

but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory both now and forever. Amen.
2 Peter 3:18

Monday, May 10, 2010

I Will Carry You

My friend, Jennifer, got me the book I Will Carry You by Angie Smith. I have read 2 chapters so far and it is very good. It has flooded me with memories though! I don't mind because I love remembering my baby girl, but it makes me long to hold her and kiss her. The reasons for our babies going to heaven are different, but our journeys are similar. Her journey helped me a lot in the days following Janie Beth's diagnosis. I look forward to journeying through the rest of the book!!

God carried me through the day yesterday!! We went to church and I even made it through baby dedication. I did begin to cry when I saw them all lined up waiting to go up, but it wasn't sobbing. I tried to concentrate on Janie Beth being in heaven and the beauty of it and the wonderful things she is expecting. It helped me keep my focus. I also imagined her looking down at me. :) She is so special to me!

I held the molds of her hand and foot. I tried to remember what it felt like to have her hold me finger. I rubbed her foot and looked at her perfect little toes, and I realized that she had my feet. It made me smile, but it also gave a pang in my heart. She is the only one of my children so far to have my feet. :) I am blessed.

Here are her precious feet. Mine look just like them from the bottom, but bigger.


  1. Her feet are beautiful. So sweet. I'm just about finished reading I will carry you. I read her blog when I was still pregnant and after gracie's diagnosis. It really helped me a lot too and still is. I did ok at church yesterday too until a new born baby directly behind me started crying. It almost stretched me beyond what I could handle but I kept it together.

  2. Love that picture, Michelle :)

    Also, I finished I Will Carry You a few weeks ago. I can safely say it is one of the best books I've ever read. She doesn't sugarcoat anything, yet it's still soo comforting. I hope you enjoy the rest of it. :)

  3. also, I just wanted to note that Janie Beth was born on Olivia's due date :)

  4. I love Angie's book. ANd that pic is beautiful!!