My friend, Jennifer, got me the book I Will Carry You by Angie Smith. I have read 2 chapters so far and it is very good. It has flooded me with memories though! I don't mind because I love remembering my baby girl, but it makes me long to hold her and kiss her. The reasons for our babies going to heaven are different, but our journeys are similar. Her journey helped me a lot in the days following Janie Beth's diagnosis. I look forward to journeying through the rest of the book!!
God carried me through the day yesterday!! We went to church and I even made it through baby dedication. I did begin to cry when I saw them all lined up waiting to go up, but it wasn't sobbing. I tried to concentrate on Janie Beth being in heaven and the beauty of it and the wonderful things she is expecting. It helped me keep my focus. I also imagined her looking down at me. :) She is so special to me!
I held the molds of her hand and foot. I tried to remember what it felt like to have her hold me finger. I rubbed her foot and looked at her perfect little toes, and I realized that she had my feet. It made me smile, but it also gave a pang in my heart. She is the only one of my children so far to have my feet. :) I am blessed.
Here are her precious feet. Mine look just like them from the bottom, but bigger.