Let me update the doctor's appointment first... I was doing ok as we drove up and walked in. I did start crying once we entered the building, but just the quiet tears sliding down your face crying. Then, we went into the waiting room. At first I was clueless, but when I turned I was hit in the face with massive pinkness around a baby girl. I lost it! Joey held me and the reception went to tell the nurse to get me a room. Joey held me until the family left. We sat for just a minute before the nurse brought us back. They checked the normal stuff. I still have 10 lbs to go before I am back to my normal weight. My iron was good.
My doctor was great! When he came in he even told us that he knew that it sucked to be back there. :) We brought some pictures to show him, and he took one to put on one of his baby boards. You have no idea how much that touches me!!!!! He told us taht he looks forward to seeing us if we are still living here when we decide to have another one. I left the appointment very peaceful. God has it all handled. He will continue to guide our journey.
After we left the doctor we went by the cemetary. It was raining a little but we still got out. They filled her up with dirt and she was looking much much better!!! Joey brought up not having to use the empty plot beside her, and I told him that even if we do God's grace will be sufficient.
That phrase has been stuck in my head ever since then. My devotion yesterday was even about God's grace being sufficient. You think God is trying to tell me something!?! :)
Here are some key points from Nancy Guthrie's One Year Devotion of Hope p. 38
the grace God provides is all you need--it is enough--for whatever you face. It will be delivered to you in the form and quantity and timing your circumstances require...The grace God provides to you is enough for whatever suffering He allows into your life, not just enough to survive but enough to equip you to emerge from your suffereing with faith intact and hope for the future. What God siad to Paul He also says to you: "My gracious favor is all you need" today and for everything you will face in the days to come (2 Corinthians 2:9).
Do I believe that God truly is enough? Is Jesus really the answer? YES!!! He has proven Himself faithful in my life throughout my past and I will trust Him with my future no matter where it goes. God's grace is sufficient for me as I experience my friend's pregnancies. God's grace is sufficient for me as I watch their babies come into this world and grow. God's grace will be sufficient for me when they put up an expectant mothers bulletin board at church. God's grace is sufficient for me as I face the mother who has children that are the same sex and almost the same age as all 4 of mine. God's grace will be sufficient for me if He calls us to move away. God's grace will be sufficient if/when we decide to have another baby and the journey that will be. God's grace will be sufficient for me tomorrow as I walk through the day that was Janie Beth's due date. Is it a coincidence that her due date was a Sunday? No way! God knows what He is doing. God's grace is sufficient for me today, tonight, tomorrow, and all the days in my future.
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider, His grace is sufficient for me, for me, for me.
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider, His grace is sufficient for me.
My God shall supply all my needs according to His riches in glory
The Lord shall provide Himself a lamb for sacrfice
Jehovah Jireh takes care of me, of me, of me.