My last post makes it sound like I am doing really well. Well, the truth is I never know from moment to moment how I will feel. This moment is sad and hard. God graciously gives me hope-filled moments and peace-filled moments also, but these sad moments are so hard.
Thank you for your continued prayers!!
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18. Father, draw close to me and rescue me. Supply the manna that I need for this day, for this moment, for this hour. I love You, My helper!
Michelle, please know you are not alone. I have said it before and I will say it again. Your life has now become a rollercoaster, it will have many MANY ups and even many more downs, there will be a few loops to get through. Don't pretend to be strong at each waking minute, we as humans have the right to be weak sometimes as well. (its harder with other kids TRUST ME) I have found the best place to let my tears flow without worrying about who is near and can hear me is in the shower. I sit on the shower floor and just let it all out, No worries of being heard by my other kids or my hubby.
ReplyDeleteWe ask ourselves, how is it God doesn't give us more than we can handle, and this is a question I am still asking: "How can one handle the loss of a child?"
My saying has been for the last couple years since loosing Naudya Jo is: No longer in our arms but forever in our hearts.
Treasure each moment you do have with your beautiful daughter. The hardest days are NOT over they won't be over for awhile. The funeral planning plainly sucks!!!! No parent should have to bury their child. Be there and hold her before and during the services if they will let you.
My heart breaks that you have to go through this. It is so hard and each day for the rest of your life will never be the same as it was before Janie Beth.
(((HUGS)))
Tanya-From one mom of an angel to another.
I will continue to pray for you and your family. SO glad you got to have some time with Janie Beth and glad that as Christians you can be assured that it wasn't the last time you will see her. Praying for you.
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Praying for you all.
ReplyDeleteI went thru the same thing (same diagnosis) 17 years ago. I can tell you that the pain of losing a child does not go away, however it does get easier to deal with day by day. Continued prayers to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteMichelle and Joey, there is an army of people who love you, support you, pray for you, and grieve with you right now. More than that, our Heavenly Father Himself is loving you and supporting you today and working mightily on your behalf to bring about good for your family. You are so very, very loved.
ReplyDeleteYou are loved, dear Michelle. Feel free to feel whatever, pain, joy, deep sadness, anger, etc. It's ok. And (gasp) its even okay to vent to God. His ears/shoulders are very big enough to handle anything we dish out. It's okay to go ahead and let it all out, tears, sobs, whatever. Last year when my dad died, I found it helpful to write. I might suggest another notebook, just for this time. Whatever way you grieve, its ok. You are the mother of little angel Janie Beth its ok to grieve. (((((HUGS))))) and passing you the tissues, "D"
ReplyDeleteMichelle, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your family.
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Michelle, you have given ME a good and timely prayer for this day and year May we both make it true in our respective lives. Love, Judy P
ReplyDeletePraying for all of you every day!
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