Yesterday was a good day, but today is proving to be harder. My heart hurts today. I long to have Janie Beth here and starting this new Bible study with me. I have been looking forward to going, but now that it is here it hurts more than I expected. I do not understand God's plan, but I know at His right hand stands One who is my Savior. Carry me, Savior, it hurts. I want the excitement and joy of my baby girl instead of watching everyone around me be excited. Lord, change my focus. I need You!
I need prayer today for multiple reasons. Some days I am great with the massive pregnant world God deems me fit to walk in, and other days I struggle. Today I am struggling. I am struggling with going to Bible study when it was my plan to have Janie Beth with me. I am struggling with questions I don't need to answer until the future, but they still swim in my head. I am hurting.
Thank you for your prayers!! You and I will never know how much they help me!
As I wrote the title for today I think I may have a clue as to my pain today. Janie Beth would have been 3 weeks old today. God, is every Tuesday and Wednesday going to be hard. I miss her, Father, and I love her so much. Wrap me in Your love and fill me with Your peace. Go deeper than my pain and begin to heal me, Abba.