Today we are heading back to the library. We haven't been since the week before we went to UAB. There will be a sense of loneliness as I walk through the doors even though I will be with my family, one of us is missing. It breaks my heart. I miss her so much. Janie Beth is so precious to me and she holds a piece of my heart. The feeling of can anyone see my pain will be on me and the desire to scream may crop up as well. All this from just going to the library!?! Another step on this journey. In another week or 2 we will go to storytime. Right now I can only manage going to the library, but I am not ready for the stares of the storytime goers because many of them don't know so there will be questions too. Father, begin even now to prepare me for that day!
I covet your prayers today as I recover from an attack from Satan yesterday. He doesn't like when I have good days. But, my God is mighty to save!!! From the song "Mighty to Save":
Savior. He can move the moutains. My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, Author of salvation. He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus conquered the grave.
Thank You, Abba, that You rose and conquered the grave and that You can move the moutains that loom in front of me!!!!