Joey had to leave early this morning because he is working with a friend for a couple weeks. He came in at 5:40 to tell me "bye", and then I rolled over and went back to sleep. HELLO, Michelle!!! Get your lazy self out of the bed! I am thankful for God's forgiveness. The morning only had one meltdown; I just love the 2's stage. I kept my cool, and I had some God time in the shower. Ladies, I am sure you have all been there! The problem is I kept forgetting what I was doing. I was too busy thinking. I have a routine for my showers, and my mind was elsewhere. I put shampoo in my hair and it wasn't even wet yet! LOL
This kind of showed me how my day goes when my mind isn't focused on God. I am going through the motions, but I am not sure what I have done. I am praying that God will help me get out of bed tomorrow morning for some quality time with Him before the kids get up.
I have re-focused and I pray the rest of my day will be God-focused. Amid the grief that I feel from not getting to experience the pregnancy I would have liked, I hope to enjoy this day and the blessings that it will bring.
I realized that I could easily be very mad at many things, but that isn't going to do any good. It will actually just hurt me. But, then when I am tempted to be mad or overly upset, I remember all that God has done for me so far on this journey. How can my heart not be thankful!?!
"Because He lives I can face tomorrow. Because He lives, all fear is gone. Because I know, He holds the future. And life is worth the living just because He lives." I love the hymn "Because He Lives", and I am so thankful that God holds the future! It may not be an easy future, but it is the best future for me in God's great big plan.
I have to share one more thing. On Monday I asked for prayers for wisdom and understanding to know God's path. Well, let me share the verse He gave me that night. God is so good!!!
Isaiah 48:17 "Thus says the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the Lord your God,... who leads you by the way you should go.'" AMEN!! When I start to worry about Janie Beth's birthday it is because I have forgotten Who is going to show me the way I should go.
I love you all!!! May the Lord bless you and keep you today.