I wanted to update on mine and Joey's time, and our journey right now. This post may go all over the place, but I pray you can follow it. I am not even following it in my head. :)
Joey and I had a wonderful time just the 2 of us!! Thank you so much to the friends that blessed us with this opportunity!!! May the Lord bless you two-fold for your kindness. We spent time shopping for Christmas. We went and saw "Old Dogs". Thankfully, we were the only people in the theatre because we laughed our heads off! We needed a funny movie. We ate Red Lobster, which is one of our favorite restaurants. We did a little more shopping on Wed, and ate lunch at Cracker Barrel. We enjoyed our time together!!
During our shopping on Wed, we bought Janie Beth a beautiful dress. It is a light pink smocked long dress with a little bonnet. I am afraid her Karr head will be too big for the bonnet, but the dress will be lovely. We also got a little pink lamb. I don't know if it is "the" thing I want to have for myself, but I didn't want to regret not getting it. It made me think of her when I saw it. I will be honest, I got a little upset picking out the dress, and I probably could have had a complete meltdown in Dillard's. It was hard to think of what the dress might be used for. It is hard to know what will fit her since her size will be different. I will take some pictures of the dress and lamb to post.
I decided yesterday that I need to start enjoying this time with her. I think I was trying to distance myself, which is something I perfected many years ago. I want to stop grieving and relish this time. There will be plenty of days to grieve later if her miracle comes in heaven.
Janie Beth was her usual self yesterday and moved around a lot for me. :) She has her first Christmas party today with our homeschool group. I hope she enjoys it! I am looking forward to it, especially seeing our friends!
I imagine a beautiful Janie Beth wearing that beautiful gown! Can't wait to see pictures! I'm so glad you and Joey had some time to do these things. I'm also glad that you are going be making more of an effort to enjoy her now. You are right about their being plenty of days to grieve if like you said her miracle is in heaven. Remember what I've said before, she will live!!! She will have her miracle!! It's just a matter of whether that miracle is healing OR eternity in heaven with her Creator! Love you!
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Happy Anniversary, Joey & Schelle. We are so glad you got to spend some special time to turn toward one another and lovingly support each other. We know it was probably a mixed time of happiness and sadness. I'm so glad you were able to find such a beautiful, sweet, girly-girl dress for your little angel. She will look amazing in it! I can only imagine the melt down that you "almost" had in Dillards. It's not funny--but, I was thinking if you, your mom, aunts, sister had all been there what a melt down Dillards would have had (oh Lord they would have closed the place down!).
ReplyDeleteWe know that Janie Beth is enjoying her time with you too and how much she loves all of you, especially her sweet, loving mommy!! Our prayers are for her miracle!
We Love Yall Always, Aunt Janetta & Uncle Steve